I feel like I've hit a bump in the road or rather like the faint trail I've been following has been covered up with dirt. In fact it feels like I'm making my way through a path in the woods while everyone else is using a nice bridge. It started when I tried reaching out and got a seemingly negative response. Since then I've been feeling off, so off that I wonder if I was ever on to begin with. I think I'm looking at this from the wrong angle. An angle concerned with what others may think of me rather than what my objective is. That objective being to learn to work within a team and experiencing what it's like to organize and participate in events. If I can keep that in mind and also remember that I'm helping to improve my community through participating in these events and projects, then I can keep going back. I'll cross my fingers and keep my eyes and mind open to ways I can make the best of this.